Past Tense

So, I’m in love. I’m in love even when you’re cruel. You have this thing that I just cant shake off, I dont know what to do. Can’t understand how you do what you do and why I’m so lovestruck. I love everything there is to you. I love that your head is in the right place and you’re making moves. [wrong moves but nonetheless, moves]. No matter what I know that you’ll never hurt me. [but wait, you did]. I love how you’re always motivated & determined. I’m in love with the fact we know that no matter what we will always end up together, as happily as ever after. [even still]. You’re the truth, you’re so real and i love the way that you make me feel. [well, once upon a time]. And if I am a reflection of you then I must be fly cause you’re light shines bright. [and now I shine alone and you’re, looking a bit dull]. I remember when we first met, I found myself immediately intrigued by you. It was almost as if I knew you from another life, like maybe back then, I was your husband, maybe you were my wife… India Arie type shit. I fell in love with how weird it all felt, weird that I’m… Me.. Vanessa, even capable of feeling this feeling. [in love]. Even things I dont like about you [like decisions you make] don’t push me away as far as I really should stay. [your life is fake] It would really be my pleasure to share your company. Take my hand and follow me. cause this is the hand that can guide you the right way. I love the way you speak. I love the way you think. I love how you are with your family. [is it even the same?] I love the tiny gap between your teeth. I love you in every way that a woman can a love a man. From personal to universal but its unconditional. There ain’t no substitute for the truth, either it is or it isnt. And see, you’re the truth. And im in love with you! And theres no better way to explain. Im sure I can say much more as to why I have fallen in love with you, but truth is … I really don’t even know. I don’t know why I feel the way I do. & quite frankly, this shouldn’t be, I shouldn’t feel this feeling at all. it should be very long gone. But you, I know you. and I know what you truly feel, not what you decide to show. if i sit here and really write every single word as to why I’m so in love, Ill have you back so quickly but truly, I’m thinking I don’t want that back. So I leave you here with these words. Take into account we had something real. had, have, will always have. blah blah blah….. I just wanted to let you know why I loved you the way I did and how I know its real, cause it still lingers here. within your soul and my own.